Dear Diary,
“But nobody will tell us the whole truth anyway,” sighed one of the friends in our shared company chat. And here I pondered – what good would this whole truth do me, her, or any other person? What useful thing will I gain by learning it, in what way will I be superior to myself not knowing it? I’ll gain only this much – that the story version spinning in my own imagination, the film reel spun from gathered information will be, as it will seem to me, closest to the real events, closest to their real chronology. But that’s only how it will seem. In reality the spinning film reel has practically nothing in common with how everything was seen by a person who participated directly. It won’t recreate the exact dimensions of the room, the exact color of the walls, the exact layout of objects, the exact words, sounds. It won’t recreate sensations. Comparing our own created images, our moving inner pictures with reality is the same as comparing a clock and a jeep – they’re incomparable. All they’ll do is simply shackle our own attention, again and again cause worrying, prevent us from sleeping, concentrating, calming down.
So whether the whole truth lies behind those horror films or not – it makes no difference. On the contrary, if you season the cartoons with various dubious but very spicy rumors even about how a three-meter-tall robot wielding a flamethrower and chainsaws for hands also participated in the events, the imagination cartoon will become even more effective. More effective in that it will shock us even more, will drive us even more into disappointment, fear and helplessness.
Therefore the advice for those wanting to restore peace after events have ended, to restore a normal sleep rhythm, is quite simple – we stop living in that visual creation of our own. No matter what greater or lesser truths it’s based on. We tear attention from them, thereby tearing ourselves from our mind’s fondness for creating our most nightmarish inner worlds and making us tremble inside them. For each individual this will bring far more benefit than successfully learned or unsuccessfully unlearned trivia.
p.s. respect to all colleagues who more or less contributed! 💪
